My dysfunctional relationship with math!!!!!

I’m an engineering student who sucks at math. No I’m not one of those students who get 95 out of 100 and say I’m so bad at math; I lose all my marks in that subject. When I say I suck, I really do. It took a lot of effort and attempts to clear my four math papers 1,2,3,4. For me graph theory, discrete mathematics, finite automata and formal language is also math, you may say it is not. I have no idea how my papa thought I will be a good engineer, really.

Now, when I was happy that I have cleared all my math paper, comes “aptitude” classes!

Being good at aptitude is very important for placements, GATE, CAT, IAS, and everything else.

Those two hours shatter every little confidence I have in life.

How, you ask?

For someone who cannot even add, subtract, multiply, divide properly without a calculator, well it’s literally being in hell.

They teach you methods which are supposed to be short cuts to solve the problem, through which I’m paying a lot of attention, and still not able to understand, they give you problem like this,

837478*625=?

5793405*9999=?

My heart skips a beat, I am petrified looking at those numbers, it takes me a minute to recover myself , and when I finally take my eyes of those numbers and look around, everyone is scribing and scratching on the book and I have no clue about what to do also, that is where my 25% of confidence is lost.

Another 25% of it is goes when I am not sure what is 6*7. Yes. I didn’t know what 6*7=42 is, stop laughing at me!

I ask my friend, after that when I actually start solving, people start shouting answers, and I’m not even half way through the problems that is where 25% of confidence goes. 75% is gone.

Needless to say zero confidence is left by the end of 2 hours. And all I’m left with a sulking face, and ready to cry.

God please help me! :(

Some of those moments...

Sometimes its not a big thing that leaves a mark, its little little things in our day to day life that makes an impression...
when a baby, looks at you and smiles


without realising,you hold hands when crossing the road


 unexpected thank you note


smell of freshly washed dried clothes


unexpected and FAST downloading speed.


the time when you know that, things between you and him is more den friendship.


hot water bath after a tiring day.


single red rose.


hand written letter
.
clearing when you thought you will fail


warm wet sand in the beach.
 
last hug,when u know u wont see each other for a long time.


when someone keeps checking your temperature when ill.


 looking at your baby photos.


fighting for hot chocolate cake.


giggling with your girls,checking out some hot guy.


going through old stuffs, and finding something you thought was lost.


when you realise its the last five mins for bell,when u r really hungry


when chandler propsed monica,when ross yells"did she get off the plane?did she get off the plane?", when
pheobe spoke to her triplets,when rachel turned thirty.


when people call to wish you on your birthday, and you cant pick it up cause you are attending some stupid boring lecture.


soft pillow and warm blanket on a cold night


 you are waiting,counting every min he is on phone with some other female,comes back smiles and says "jealous?" and you say "why should I be jealous?"


last exam.


proud look in your parents eyes.

MOMENTS LIKE THESE MAKE LIFE!!!!

Year 2010

2 days left and its the end of another here. Though I had a VERY bumpy start, after having cried on new year itself, I wasn't expecting anything better, but the year is coming to end in the BEST way possible. New class, new friends, exams gone well.Everything is just perfect right now.Loving every bit of my life.When I think and look back, I will never forget,having my first sip of beer( naturally, everything else followed..:P)my first time bowling,I beat my boyfriend!:) it was the only time, as usual I sucked at it every other time,beginner's luck does exit,organizing first "SUPRISE" birthday party,the cutest birthday cake..:):):) and the mask to make me feel like a birthday princess :) love you guys so much!,5 continuous exams(phew!!!) and clearing all of them(*full happy*),chennai,getting drunk and singing loudly,sleepovers-sitting on terrace, middle of the night playing uno,cooking and eating at 2 p.m. and all the rolling with laughter at stupid jokes till stomach hurts!laughing my ass out in library whole day, on the previous day of exam,start of this BLOG! Overall a memorable year.

hoping for a even more fun year ahead,
wishing you all a very HAPPY NEW YEAR.
CHEERS!!

Study Holidays

You know its study holidays when,

•  library is buzzing with people from early morning to evening, it is actually so full it feels like a mini market!
• you frequently hear the sentences, "how much you done with macha?", "there is so much to study! and I have done so little", " I am tensed!"
• start eating really less cause you feel sleepy, not cause you put on weight!
• photocopy guy is in full demand!
• people you hardly even talk to, come talk and be sweet and ask if they can borrow your books, notes, question banks or whatever!
• stop watching movies and start using the laptop for something else!
• get up early, even tho its a holiday!